Here is a collection of e-mails that I have sent. The content of them all is what God has layed on my heart.

[ Epiphany | Submission ]

From: "Jeffrey Larson"
Subject: epiphany
Date: Tuesday, November 13, 2001 12:09 PM

I had an epiphany the other day.
I was thinking about the friendships I have had as while growing up, the different roles that I have taken, and what I have learned in each.

In my early years, I struggled as a little boy without many friends.

God was teaching me that the only friend I truly need was Him. I did not feel personal importance. God didn't stop the rain, but he did give me a raincoat. I always had a loving family.

In my teenage years, I developed many friendships, some of these were ones in which I had to take a leadership role, where I had to support more than be supported.

God was teaching me patience and to take leadership, and the importance of loving my friends no matter what. I felt personal importance from knowing that I could help.

In my University years, I have encountered independence on a greater scale. In this time, I realize that I don't always have to be the leader and the supporter, but must be the supported at times.

God is teaching me that he will support me through other people. He will provide friendships in which I must and can be lifted up. I feel personal importance from knowing that my friends truly care for me.

So what was my epiphany?
All the friendships I have had... planned.
All the roles I would take in these relationships... known before hand.
All the things I would learn from each one... pre-determined goals.

Hindsight is 20 / 20 and God has always been there, has always been watching, has always been in control.

God knows what He's doing, and He's always going to love on us. He's teaching us and we're growing in him, even when we don't know it.

Jesus Christ is only the reason we can have such an awesome relationship with God. And the cool thing is, God longs to have a close relationship with each of us. He proved that by making it as easy as a decision to follow him, by faith, as a start to an intimate relationship with our Creator.

May the One who deserves all Glory and Honour, bless you in His infinite wisdom,
Jeffrey Larson,
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Follower of Jesus Christ,

In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith--of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire--may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honour when Jesus Christ is revealed.

1 Peter 1:6-7

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From: "Jeffrey Larson"
Subject: wow, i wanna completely submit to Him.
Date: Friday, September 28, 2001 8:54 AM

The thing I want most is what God wants for me. My heart is that all that is of me, that is of my human nature, my sinful nature, is left and God fills me with his Spirit. I want to be able to say that I will submit anything, even the things that I feel I have earned or that I feel I have put too much time into to give up. But for Him, it would be worth following His lead.

I think it is kinda funny how Christians use the same analogies again and again, and the one I think I hear the most often is going through the valleys to get to the peaks. These analogies help us humans understand (partially) how this life continues on, even though I don't think this life can be fully described by words. This is a song I have been listening to a lot recently... it is probably my favourite song right now.

If You Want Me To
Words and Music by Ginny Owens and Kyle Matthews: BMG Songs, Inc. (Gospel Division)/Above The Rim Music (Administered by BMG Songs, Inc.) (ASCAP)

The pathway is broken
The signs are unclear
I can't find the reason why You led me here
But just because You love me the way that You do
I will go through the valley
If You want me to

Now I'm not who I was
When I took my first step
And I'm clinging to the promise You're not through with me yet
And if all of these trials can make me like You
I will go through the fire
If You want me to

It may not be the way I would have chosen
'Cause it leads me through a world that's not my home
But You never said it would be easy
Only that I'll never go alone

When the whole world turns against me
And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear You answer my cries for help
I'll remember the suffering Your love put You through
And I will go through the valley
If You want me to

Our struggles and sufferings seem huge, they seem really tough. But the fact is, we can make it through them in His strength. They are nothing compared to Christ's sufferings. Glory to the highest, for he has conquered death. The battle against evil has already been won, hallelujah.

Jeffrey Larson,
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Follower of Jesus Christ,

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